forget me.

I don’t recall asking much of you, I didn't ask for you to love me, I didn't ask to be in your thoughts all the time, nor did I ask you to be there continually. The one thing that I did ask of you was for you to never forget me, mostly because above all you were a dear friend to me. You gave me your word that I could never be forgotten, you told me that nothing could wipe me from your memory, that nothing could take my place and nothing would ever hold the same meaning as I do. I think you kept true to your word, but it’s not at all how I imagined.

It’s true that you haven’t forgotten me, even though its been a year since we meant anything to each other, it’s been a year since we've talked properly . You haven’t forgotten me, but it’s not in the way I imagined, I wanted you to remember the happiness I brought you, all the times you smiled because of me and all the memories we created together. But I guess when I asked you to never forget me you interpreted it in entirely the wrong way. I wanted to be remembered, instead you remember me most only when you’re lonely, when the world you've so meticulously crafted crumbles around you, that’s when you remember me. When you have nowhere else to go, that’s when you remember me, when no one else will listen, that’s when you remember me. You run to me when your world is broken and you forget me when it becomes mended.

I don’t know why I so badly wanted you to remember me, I guess I figured memories would be the only thing left of us, and in time they too would be forgotten, so I wanted you to remember me. And it seems I was right, you forgot what it means to be a friend, our friendship was forgotten with ease and all you remember is me as a safe haven when all else smolders around your feet. I don’t want to be remembered when you’re broken and weak. I have only ever asked you to remember me, I have asked nothing more and I promised I would never ask any more of you, except now, I need to ask you one last thing, because I need you to free me from this imprisonment that I am so helpless to run from, I need you to do one last thing for me and Lord knows I’m owed that much, I need you to forget me.