I Can Barely Say by The Fray

  

I said I told you everything I left something out
Underneath the stairwell.
That I'm under lock and key, but you can probably tell
A powder keg in a prison cell.

I wanna return but all you will do is turn to leave
If I can find my way home, will you take hold of me?
I've been gone so long
I can barely say
All I know is now I want to stay
Has it been too long since I went away?
Cause I'm trying to find the words but I can barely say

Well I used to be the sun
Waiting silently but they barely noticed me
But I've been talking in my sleep when anybody sees they turn and run from me

I want to return but all you will do is turn to leave
If I can find my way home will you take hold of me?
Cause I've been gone so long
I can barely say
All I know is now I want to stay
Has it been too long since I went away?
Cause I'm trying to find the words but I can barely say

I wanted to run
I wanted to love and be loved in return
But will I ever get back, do I know too much to return.

I've been gone so long, I can barely say
All I know is now I wanna stay
Has it been too long since I went away?
Cause I'm trying to find the words but I can barely say.

what i see

I remember the very first time I ever laid eyes on you, as cliched as it sounds, your beauty absolutely took my breath away. I can’t exactly find the words to describe what I felt but I knew it was something unique, something that I had never felt before and never would again. I sat there staring at you for a good few minutes thinking, “my god, she’s absolutely beautiful”… And then you opened your mouth, and I filtered out everything else going on in that room, and as you spoke, it dawned on me that your beauty was not your greatest asset, but rather it was the mind that sits behind those guarded brown eyes accented by those warm fiery tinges of black and gray. In time as I got to know you for who you are I realized that this mind which I believed to be your greatest asset only takes a distant second place to the heart that rests within your chest.

As we became friends of the truest definition of the word, I realized that my life without you in it is like world without an atmosphere. Barren. But just as a world with an atmosphere is complex and exists in a fine balance, so does my life, and that is why I’ll  never know if what you mean to me is anywhere near with what I mean to you. I don’t exactly know what I feel for you, but I do know that it runs deep like the roots of a tree, you underpin my every achievement and in everything I do, I look to you to see if you smile with the grace of your effortless beauty, I look for answers in those beautiful eyes, guidance in your sharp mind and most of all, approval in that enormous heart.