p.a.i.n

Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pains we live with everyday.


Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else... Makes the rest of your world fade away, until all we can think about is how much we hurt.


How we manage our pain is up to us.


Pain. We anesthetize , ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.


Pain.


You just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound that caused it heals.


There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breath deep and wait for it to subside.


Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up.


Pain. You just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it... And life always makes more.

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i once posted this as a note on my FB account. just wanna share it here. 

by the way, i got this from Grey's Anatomy. :)

very very light...

sometimes we keep holding on even if the situation tells us to let go. we ignore the pain to the point that we become numb. we keep fighting even if the person we love has already given up on us. we still hope, against all odds, against all logic, that everything will be ok. that everything will return to normal. that all the bullshit and the drama will end.

but at the end of the day, there will come a point that we'll get tired. we'll realize that the pain we feel is too much, that we've suffered too long and that we've hoped too high. we'll realize that the battle is already finish and we have to face the fact that we have lost the fight and the victory will never be ours. yes, there'll be wounds, deep, penetrating wounds, but no matter how deep those wounds are, the good thing is, they'll heal. we'll recover. we'll be ok again. the wounds will heal but the scars will always be there to remind us about the battle we have faced and how stupid we were back then. people sometimes get stupid when it comes to love. that's a fact. but there's no need to blame ourselves.

we have fought valiantly to save the dying relationship.we have done our part. and after all this shit, we need to move on. it'll take time to recuperate, it's a gradual process, like the cliche "one-baby-step-at-a-time" crap. but it's the only way to save ourselves. it's time to pick up the broken pieces of our shattered heart and make it whole again. one day, though bruised and wounded, we will be whole again and the experience we had will help us to face the world with a kick-ass attitude.

-E.R 12/13/2011 7:25 am

just sayin'

napapansin ko lately na puro heart-broken ang mga tao sa paligid ko. may iniwan, may pinagtatabuyan, may niloko at may nagpapakamartir. medyo nababahala na nga ako kasi parang dumadami sila, sign na ba ito ng climate change? 


siguro, isa na marahil ang pagmo-move on sa pinakamahirap na bahagi ng isang failed relationship. bakit? kasi ito na yung point kung saan kailangan mo nang talikuran ang lahat ng masasakit na nangyari para iligtas naman ang sarili mo. kailangan mong harapin yung katotohanan na tapos na ang lahat at kahit na ano pang gawin mo, kumain ka man ng apoy o bunutin ang buhok sa ilong, eh wala na talagang mangyayari para maisalba ang love story niyo. mahirap, oo, pero kailangan.


sabi nga ni papa jack, "kahit mahal mo siya, may pagkakataon na kailangan nating magpaalam."


hindi ito one-night process. it takes time. pero ang mahalaga, ay yung courage na meron ka para harapin ang katotohanang tapos na ang lahat at kailangan niyo ng maghiwalay ng landas.


matapang ka kung kaya mong ipaglaban ang taong mahal mo. pero mas matapang ka kung kaya mo siyang pakawalan.


sa kahit na anong experience na pinagdadaanan ng isang tao, laging may moral lesson na kaakibat. at yun, para sa akin, ang isa sa pwede mong gamitin para makapag-move on. ano ang natutunan mo? kung meron, panghawakan mo yun at gamitin mo para maging buo ka ulit. tandaan mo na minsan ka mang nasaktan at nabigo, hindi ibig sabihin ay titigil na rin ang mundo mo at hahayaan mong madurog ang puso at pagkatao mo. masyadong maikli ang buhay para aksayahin sa pag-iyak, page-emote at pakikinig sa mga kanta ni Sarah Geronimo.


wag mong kalimutan na nandiyan ang barkada, ang mga kaibigan mong sa una ay aawayin ka sabay banat ng "yan kasi, di ka nakikinig sa amin" pero sa bandang huli, sila pa rin yung mga taong yayakap at magpaparamdam na madaming nagmamahal sa'yo. sigurado, yayayain ka pa nila uminom, mag-party, mag-shopping, mag-videoke at tumambay sa mall at maghanap ng irereto nila sa'yo.


umiyak ka. hayaan mo lang. wag ka matakot. makakatulong yun para gumaan ang nararamdaman mo. umiiyak ka kasi nagmahal ka ng tama.


let go, and let God. totoo yan. sa mga ganitong pangyayari sa buhay mo, Siya ang pinaka the best lapitan. makikinig Siya sa'yo at bibigyan ka ng pinakamagandang advice na mababasa mo sa Bible. 


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hindi man ganun kaganda yung mga advice na sinulat ko sa taas, pero masasabi kong lahat yan ay based on experience (wow). kanya -kanya man tayo ng paraan ng pagmo-move on, isang bagay lang ang sigurado, na pagkatapos ng lahat ng drama, iyakan, awayan, sumabatan, solian ng mga teddy bears at sulat, at pagbubura ng name ni ex sa friends list sa fb, at the end of the day, mas naging matatag tayo at matapang para harapin ang mga darating na challenges sa buhay.


let's get it on! :)


p.s. sigurado, mga after 10-15 years, kapag pinagusapan niyo ulit yung mga nangyari sa inyo, matatawa na lang kayo, sabay sabi, "shit, ganun ba ko dati?" hehehe